Need Slow-Mo

The irony of this blogsite of mine is that whenever huge things are happening, I don't blog about them.  I simply don't find the time to do it.  I need to learn how to slow down and reflect, so that I can write it all down.

Since my last entry, I've attended two weddings, after one of which I had to drive home 2 drunken people home - I barely knew them.  I've changed jobs.  I've had two interviews.  I've gone backpacking through Mexico.  And nowhere are these written on here.

Now I don't know where to begin.  I think I will post a few photos.  Enjoy.

on to other things

my manager refused the assignment that offered to me. i am bummed about it.  i can whine all night long but it's not gonna change the decision.  whatever. i'll get over it.

i took a good friend out for dinner tonight. it was her birthday last week and i didn't get to hang out with her nor did i get her any present. we went to milestone's. had steak, prawns and garlic mashed potatoes. it was sooo good. it's ridiculous.

my long weekend last week was bad. i got sick. i don't know if it was food poisoning or stomach flu. i don't know what i had that did it. i had diarrhea for 3 days. it was horrible. sorry for the TMI. hehe d: )

my Bible study group is doing very well.  I thank the Lord for guiding us through The Battle. the devil sure is trying to prevent us from making a commitment to each other. I praise the Lord for giving us the will power and strength to carry on.

love is around

it's after midnight. i'm still awake. can't sleep. i received an email today from a gov't dep't i used to work for.  it's a job assignment offer. and i'm so stoked about it. i really want to accept it. thing is, it is subject to my director's approval, who was not in the office today. i will speak to her tomorrow when she comes back.

i spoke to a few of my coworkers about this and they were happy for me. however, they are not optimistic that i will be approved. apparently, this particular dep't is not generous at all in allowing its employees to work outside the department and broaden their horizons so to speak.  it totally sucks. no wonder the morale at work is sadly low.

i can't sleep over this. it is my dream to work for this department. But at the end of the day, it's not my director's or my decision. it's God.  Lord, to your will I submit. Amen.

the Lord spoke tonight

my group's weekly meeting has just ended and the guys have left. God is doing mighty things in our little ministry. i'm looking forward to how things are going to pan out.

it was at our last week's meeting where i brought up certain issues like the future of our group, which is a break from the usual stuff like checking how the past week went for each of us and our book study.  i was hesitant at first but was relieved to find out that everyone shared the same sentiment. we all feel God is calling our group to a higher level, which requires of us a greater magnitude of commitment. our reply : we're ready.  big changes are going to happen, i'm sure. God has fanning the flame in our hearts into a blazing desire to serve him more.

I say to you Lord, to your will I submit.  I am your servant.

back to school?

Il fait déjà sept mois que j’ai trouvé un emploi dans la fonction publique.  Le salaire, les benefits, la stabilité sont tous beaux.  Je ne sais pas c’est quoi mais quelque chose manque.  Je suis pas complètement content dans ce poste là.  Je sais que j’ai le potentiel d’être dans une meilleure position.  C’est certain que je vais pas ici pendant très longtemps. Dans cet instant, je fais du recherche sur des differents programmes aux plusieures universités partout au Canada.  C’est que j’ai l’intention de retourner à l’école et peut-être faire une maîtrise en relations internationales.  J’ai trouvé un programme qui m’intéresse beaucoup.  SFU et Capilano College par exemple offrent un programme joint - une maîtrise en international leadership. Le programme dure 2 ans.  La première année a lieu en classe et la deuxième consiste d’un stage à l’etranger.  A la fin, on reçoit deux diplômes : un de chaque école.  Toutefois, l’admission est très compétitive.  Chaque année, on n’accepte que 20-30 étudiants.

Une partie de moi-même veut le faire.  Une autre est pleine de doutes avec questions comme est-ce que j’ai vraiment la capacité de consacrer de nouveau 2 ou 3 ans de ma vie à l’école?  Ben, j’ai plein de temps pour prier avant prendre une décision.  Je vais attendre une autre année avant de faire la demande.  En passant, j’irai à Cap College le 3 juin pour une de leur séances de renseignement.  Ca doit me donner beaucoup d’info qui m’aidera surement dans ma décision.  On verra, hein.